Wednesday, May 27, 2009

I sent the emails, I made the phone calls, I signed you and her up for the spamming sites and magazines and bill me later stuff, and I am planning to infest both of your cars, houses, or clothes with revenge crabs, and I might put superglue in the locks on both of your houses and put the water hose through the window or mailslot while you are not home and turn on the water to let it run until you get back, and i'll probably let the air out of both of your tires or poke a hole in your radiator or break your car windows....

and I wish I didn't want to do all of that. I wish you would just talk to me and give me closure instead of ignoring me like I don't exist and like we didn't spend the last two years in an intimate relationship with each other that you are pretending like didn't happen!

I loved you for 18 years and the best you can do is... Thank you for the *****!?... and that Biatch is going to act like I'm a stalker b/c you've lied to her about me? I found my inner stalker, thanks to you, and I hate myself for all the dark thoughts I listed previously, and I hate you for making me hate you... b/c I loved you more than you deserved.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

3 years ago you slept with the man you knew I was in love with.

Since then I have gone out of my way to hit on and sleep with several of your ex's.

And I'm the one who told that boy you fell for that you lied to him about being married and having a kid.

We're even now, but I still enjoy the momentary look of hurt whenever you see one of your former loves paying attention to me instead.

Anonymous said...

I am taking some of these ideas and putting them into action. Hate may eat me up inside but revenge will soothe the hurt.

Anonymous said...

Take comfort in the fact you're not alone in feeling this way.
I too hate who I became during and after our break up.. it took me a long time to realise how much time and energy I wasted waiting for him.

Face forward..... the best advice I've gotten. Who cares if he's ignoring you and moved on. Him and his opinions do not define who you are.. Face forward to your future, don't get stuck in your past.. Its hard but you can do it....

miss_u said...

Oh my have I been there! My ex had the balls to ask me to watch his pets while he and his current ho were on vacation. I took this perfect opportunity to print the emails of all his female correspondants that she knows nothing about and put them on her nightstand. She has since moved out.....wonder why? I regret nothing!

Anonymous said...

This post frightens me a lot. It makes me think of my ex and what he has possibly running through his mind. I cannot speak from your position but from where I stand his actions are completely unwarranted and there is no way of speak sense to him. We had three great years together that I can hardly think of due to his current actions. He has become someone I cannot even recognize anymore and it scares me to no end. All I ever asked for was uninterrupted time for me to deal with the break up. He could not deal with this and so he turned to malicious acts. Now I want nothing to do with him and he just keep getting worse. Why can't people deal with the fact that a relationship has ended? Where does it say you have to continue to have them in your life there after? No where. I know he does the things he does because he can't deal with the pain. He is trying to hurt me like he is hurting, but it will not work.

Do what you want, but the only person you really hurt in the end is yourself. You are wasting so much time and energy on being angry that you are not fully living. Think about all the great moments you are missing because of this wasted energy. Remember the best revenge is living happy.

Anonymous said...

Getting lost in your crazy will only hurt you and further prove his point. If you are as delusional as this letter sounds (blaming someone else for your own actions), and believe the things you've said, how can you trust yourself to have a real grasp of what is or is not the "truth?"
Life is far too short to loose yourself trying to get revenge. You're only hurting and humiliating yourself more.
Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself, not the one who wronged you. Think about victims of violent crimes, rape, or those who've lost a loved one to a drunk driver - those who haven't allowed such things to continue destroying their lives after the fact have found a way to regain their own lives. And if your every thought is consumed by someone else, your life isn't your own.

Anonymous said...

I understand the pain your lost loved has caused, but hope that by now you've realized any more "acting out" on your part is not only incredibly childish, but also preventing you from living your own life. Not to mention the pain, humiliation and shame you're sure to feel down the road. If, as you say he's lied to her, why do you also want to hurt her? Can you imagine how ridiculous you must seem to her? Of course she believes the person who has shown her his best side (as men do when dating), instead of a woman who's shown the very worst of herself. I know it's hard, but the best you can do is be glad the rotten bullet that you obviously think he is and be your best (looking your best never hurts, either) so that you can be in love with yourself then maybe one day fimd someone good for YOU. Because you know you'll never really HAVE your ex (hope you realize that his using you for sex is not loving you) and you certainly won't attract anything other than the absolute worst of humanitly with the attitude shown in your post.